September 11, 2012


      It is amazing to me to think of all the stuff I learned in high school. All the things that were in bedded in my head over and over again. Now at this point in my life I feel as though I have forgotten everything. Everything  that was taught to me so many years ago. Everything that I was told I would always need later in life, but as I sit in my classes I feel that everything I am learning I am learning for the very first time. It is so overwhelming at times as I sit and listen to the things being taught thinking to myself I should know the answer, but actually I don't.
      I think sometimes it is even harder when my son says to me don't worry mom if you need I can help you no problem. Wow !! if that isn't just about a kick in the ass. I should be the one being able to help him with his homework when in reality if I really did need help I could ask him. It's amazing to me to think that he could help me. That what I am doing in college he is doing in high school. I mean don't get me wrong he definitely can't help me with everything. It is still just strange hearing him say it about certain subjects.
      One day at a time and one class at a time that is all I can do. I know that things will get easier and before I know it things will start to sounds familiar and I will be doing the work with no problem. It will be like I never left school. I even figure this time around I will probably even learn more than last time. Since last time I was only there because I had to be and just did enough to get by and pass the class. This time I am there because I want to be, and from what I have been told that is when you do better. This time I actually have a goal something to really work towards.